Saturday, July 13, 2024

Gratitude

Being the Good and Seeing the Good is having a attitude of gratitude. And gratitude matters. It's what helps us to appreciate, to hope, to have faith, to have joy and happiness. True gratitude helps us to break down barriers and fill in the gaps. The first time gratitude took a deep rooted hold on me was when I was struggling to find any light in my life in 2017. I was so lost and not sure where to go but kept feeling that if I kept going forward with small acts I'd make it through somehow. One of those thoughts is what started this blog: looking for the lessons of life. As I focused on what God might be teaching me I began to see how it was all working for my good, even when it all seemed to fall apart. Right along with that in 2018 was when I stumbled upon Jen Bosen from Real Life on Purpose where she put together a daily email for Novembers traditional daily gratitude. However, her version was something I hadn't seen before and it was exactly what I needed. While it is no longer available I was able to reach out to her last year in 2023 and get the Gratitude on Purpose email list which I will share below, without her original messages that go with each topic. This is because while I want to share the big imapct this had on me I also respect all the effort and work she put into her own project and don't feel it's my place to put much more than what I will be sharing.

  Gratitude on Purpose

By Jen Bosen
  1. Abundance VS Scarcity
  2. Speak out your gratitude
  3. The Gratitude lifestyle
  4. Gratitude breakdown
  5. Gratitude expansion
  6. Assume positive intent
  7. Want what you have
  8. Look back and be grateful
  9. Anticipate gratitude
  10. Mindful moments of gratitude
  11. Embrace Negative Emotion
  12. Bad news, good news
  13. The network of humanity
  14. One Truth is enough
  15. Just Ask
  16. Fear will not prevent loss
  17. Being polite or being grateful?
  18. Gratitude debt; pay it forward
  19. Self Gratitude
  20. Gratitude begets generosity
  21. Mistakes aren’t what matters; what we do with it DOES
Last year when I reached out to Jen I was able to express how much this had meant to me and looking back on this list has brought tears to my eyes because these are the foundations I have rebuilt my beliefs on and even teach to my kids! I had the opportunity to express my gratitude to Jen YEARS later when I was finally in a place to look back and see how far I had come and how her efforts were noticed and needed. 

Jen using her spiritual gifts were answers to my prayers and saved me. She followed God which led me back to Him too and being able to then express that gratitude to her was what she said she was needing in this moment of her life. 
 
As I continued to grow on these foundations of gratitude it has allowed me to have an open mind and heart and has expanded my desire for others to also experience the same joy. To let go of their pain, no matter how justified they feel it may be. If that is what you're seeking then this post is for you.
 
Because we have a natural human tendency to seek answers we try and find the right sources.
If you have a heart problem you don’t go to see a mechanic.
Even the mechanic probably goes home to hobbies that have nothing to do with cars. Perhaps they relate to the heart because they work with valves and so do heart doctors. Perhaps they’re a fantastic cook but they don’t have a food handlers license so they give their food out to just friends and family. There is no limitation to the vast variety of talented and amazing people out there!
The mechanic’s value is not less. The mechanics “beliefs” are just different. The mechanic made the necessary choices to become a mechanic and the doctor made the necessary choices to become a doctor.
Simply put: I’d go to a doctor for my heart, a mechanic for my car, and Jesus for my soul.
What this DOESN’T mean is that I won’t talk to the atheist mechanic about souls, the Christian doctor about their favorite cars, or Jesus about the condition of my heart.

The church has its policies and makes its decisions by fallible people who have their own goals in mind. This united goal for the celestial kingdom and the church extends the offer to ALL who want to think celestial, who want the same goal, and who want to have the same belief to also achieve that.  If that’s what I want I make the necessary sacrifices, preparation, and choices to get there. The church isn’t trying to exclude anyone. Exclusion happens from individual choices made. It’s that way for any club, membership, religion, group, etc.  We can’t just say we want something and get it. Life in its imperfect state doesn’t work like that! We have to work at it. If I wanted to shop at Costco, I’d need to take the necessary steps and sacrifices to get access to it. If I wanted to go to Disneyland, I can’t just go straight to the gate and demand they let me in without a ticket even if the rest of my family is already in there. If I didn’t take the necessary steps and sacrifices to get myself into Disneyland I’m not going to get into Disneyland…today. These and many others  have boundaries, rules, requirements, expectations, etc. to make it to their collective end goal. Even apply for a job works like this! We “agree” to the terms and conditions of being a member of that company. As individuals we also each have or should have our own boundaries.

I only say ‘should have’ because it’s something a person would go to therapy for. Boundaries are a way of life. Choices are a way of LIFE. The church is no different. The church, president Nelson, and others are saying “if you WANT this, then work on getting there and we want all who want to, to come join us. To let go of whatever is holding you back but if you’re good where you’re at then that’s good for me too but if you ever change your mind then here’s how you can do it. As for those who already are here at this conference here’s how you can make the most of it because this life is a challenge, confusing, and also beautiful.”

From my perspective it has always been an invitation. The choice after that is all individual. I believe in eternal families, my God, my Savior, this Church and I want to be in the celestial kingdom so I make choices that aim me in that direction. Your beliefs and your choices may aim you in a different direction. That’s all.

When we have been encouraged to “think celestial” that’s for those who want or may someday want to be in the celestial kingdom too.
When we have been recommended to “not council with others that don’t believe” that’s not BECAUSE they believe different but what they do WITH that difference. If two differing parties get together and have a civil counsel but come to no common agreement based off of their differences then both parties go no where. This is not just church related! When the government cannot agree it shuts down which hurts a LOT of people. There is no “success” in counseling with people who BECAUSE they believe different they CHOOSE to focus on the differences and mistakes and don’t make much effort into finding common ground. If you don’t want to see any good in another’s message you’re going to only see what’s wrong. Both parties will end up just going into circles with no end goal. That’s not to say there was no VALUE in the conversation up to that point.

If we look for and highlight the mistakes someone or some organization has that’s all we will continue to see. If we look for the good, regardless of how much we have to stretch to see it, we will continue to see the good. It’s not as complicated as it’s being made out to be. It wouldn’t matter how else I worded this message if your intent is to continue to focus on what’s “wrong” that I said. If that was the case that’s what you’ll see and respond to. If I kept changing my analogies and the way I say it in an effort to find what we CAN agree on within what we DISAGREE on but you just want to pick it apart it’s going to not be a counsel it’s going to be exhausting, frustrating, and will most likely end up far from the original subject matter that was brought up in the first place. It will only make it more difficult to want to have a have another conversation, or another counsel. It doesn’t mean it WON’T ever happen but it does mean it’ll be HARDER to have another conversation because the expectation will be “misunderstanding” before the conversation has even begun; since that is the pattern and character that has been shown before. 
This is what it means in the scriptures when it says to “agree with the adversary quickly while thou art in the way with them”. It doesn’t mean admitting defeat, it doesn’t mean you stay silent and don’t defend yourself, and it DOESN’T mean to not get into the conversation in the first place.

The tough conversations need to be had to work through feelings, thoughts and actions. Most people avoid them for their own reasons. Everything and everyone is our teacher. There is a time to share your hurt and then right afterwards a journey of letting it go.  It’s NOT easy to share your feelings. I believe it’s even harder to share them eloquently. The hardest of all, in my opinion, is then letting it go/ to stop bringing it back up again. Teaching by consistently pointing out what wrong isn’t going to have a positive outcome. It doesn’t “fix” anything and it makes both parties, especially the one being “taught by mistakes”, worse.

“We are not our history. We are our future”.
Because we are on this earth to learn and are meant to make mistakes we are not meant to dwell on the past and wallow in self pity and guilt. God takes care of what “went wrong”. Jesus took care of all our mistakes. And we’ve been given the gift of the Holy Ghost to keep moving forward. We have a history but it was not meant to define us. It is meant to MOTIVATE us. The unfortunate history is not meant to hang around our necks and weigh us down, as the devil would like us to constantly remember, but to be a reminder of why we got moving in this direction in the first place.
We make mistakes. That’s our history, but what we do with it is what makes our future and our character.

And some others may not understand those choices we've had to make. Some we might not even understand ourselves or some that are so complex we’re not sure what the right one looks like. Seeing people at the intersection of their choice versus afterwards and if we agree with it will lead to more compassionate hearts. There is an accountability that needs to be taken with each choice we make but we mustn’t focus on it. Focus instead on the person who has to make the tough choice in the first place. Imagine how it felt for them having to make that choice. Did they feel it was right, right away? Was it easy for them to do? Did they have to give up things they loved and were used too, when they made that choice? Do you see them as brave for choosing what they thought was best in the moment? Do you see yourself in them? Have you needed to make tough choices where neither choice felt right or neither choice felt wrong but you HAD to make a choice and you just hoped it was the right one? 
It’s not often we see people in the middle of them making their choices; especially the tough ones. It’s usually a private and vulnerable time; so it’s natural for us to focus on the accountability of the choice after it’s already been made. That’s why we live on Earth in our probationary state. 

Probationary: 

1.) relating to a process of testing or observing the character or abilities of a person who is new to a role or job.


2.)relating to the release of an 

offender subject to a period of good behavior under supervision.


I always roughly knew probationary to mean “test” but I felt like I should look up the definition this morning and I’m glad I did. 

The first definition talks about a test of our character or abilities. How can we turn our heart more towards God? By choosing Him always. Consistent effort and showing integrity in our character, in who we are, turns our hearts more towards Him and like it says in verse 10 of Alma chapter 12, “And therefore, he that will harden his heart, the same receiveth the lesser portion of the word; and he that will not harden his heart, to him is given the greater portion of the word, until it is given unto him to know the mysteries of God until he know them in full”. This reminded me of a talk from this past conference called “Integrity: a Christlike attribute” by Jack N. Gerard.

Definition two addresses probationary from a law standpoint as someone who has already committed an action requiring ‘proof of good behavior under supervision’. I think from a spiritual law standpoint this is applicable as well to our lives on Earth because we naturally struggle to choose God always. We might want to, but we we still fail from time to time. I think this definition could be changed slightly to mean that when we have made a choice against Gods commandments we have many opportunities to prove once again our loyalty to Him and that whatever we can’t make up is taken care of by the supervision of Christ who felt our pains and died for our sins. This reminded me of a video I saw on Instagram where a woman filming a man in their call asked something like the question, “why would God send good people to hell?” To which he responds incredulously with something like, “God doesn’t send us to hell. We’re already in our own versions of hell making our way back to Him for deliverance. WE put ourselves in hell. HE takes us out of it.”

When someone’s choice has hurt you say what you need to say, let it go because you can’t control them or their choices only yours, and then go about noticing anything good. About them, what you learned from the situation, about the organization, or anything you’ve noticed that has made you grateful for it. Gratitude is the biggest vehicle to happiness. Both kids are hurt. Both kids are defensive. Both kids need love. Both kids need peace. But it only takes ONE to stop the cycle. What if that ONE decided they had spent enough of their life trying to defend themselves verses living their happy life? What if that one kid decided to keep walking even if the other kid continued their torment? What if that one kid returned a name call with a true smile? Wouldn’t they have a happier life without continuing the banter to “protect” themselves and other kids like them?

They’d have more time to PLAY because they’re done fighting. That’s what I mean when I say “let it go” or “don’t dish it back”. I’m actually more worried about how happy everyone could ACTUALLY be if we spend all our time pointing fingers. How much more TOGETHER could we be if we noticed and appreciated our similarities verses dividing ourselves and defending ourselves because of our differences? How much more together could we have during the hard conversation. Then from that hard conversation only focus on what we LOVE about the other verses how WRONG they are?

“You’ll never be happier than you are grateful”

XOXO

Megan 

Prayers to Heaven


PART I

Our Offerings

Often going to pray we feel we don’t have anything to pray for or are stumped as to what we should pray about. I think this is because we often think of prayer needing to be formal or “in proper order”, and while there is certainly a place for it we must also consider what praying “style” will keep us continuous in communicating with our heavenly parents. We must consider which form of prayer is best for our current circumstances. We must consider the intention for the prayer, “what am I praying for?” THEN we will know which form of prayer to use. 

President Jeffery R. Holland in his talk from April 2024 entitled, Motion's of a Hidden Fire,  said, “When we don’t know how or exactly for what to pray, we should begin, and continue, until the Holy Spirit guides us into the prayer we should be offering”. This form of prayer is a reflective prayer. It’s the kind of prayer that you open up to just sit with God in His presence. Sitting with God opens up the pathways to Heaven for us and give us the hope and encouragement we are needing. President Jeffery R. Holland, just before this quote shared, also offered a list of other ways we can pray, “My beloved friends,” He says, “our prayers are our sweetest hour, our most “sincere desire,” our simplest, purest form of worship. We should pray individually, in our families, and in congregations of all sizes. We are to employ prayer as a shield against temptation, and if there be any time we feel not to pray, we can be sure that hesitancy does not come from God, who yearns to communicate with His children at any and all times. Indeed, some efforts to keep us from praying come directly from the adversary.” Later President Holland reflected on the devotion to prayer Christ had and even pointed out the different reasons why and how Jesus prayed; “He too, with us, wanted to “seek [the Father’s] face, believe his word, and trust his grace.” Time after time, He retreated from society to be alone before piercing heaven with His prayers. At other times, He prayed in the company of a few companions. Then He would seek heaven on behalf of multitudes who would cover a hillside. Sometimes prayer glorified His clothing. Sometimes it glorified His countenance. Sometimes He stood to pray, sometimes He knelt, and at least once He fell on His face in prayer.”

To pray in Private is ,as mentioned in Matthew 14:23, “And when he had sent the multitudes away, he went up into a mountain apart to pray: and when the evening came, he was not alone.” It is a sacred time between God and ourselves where we seek direct guidance from Him, express our gratitude towards Him, and pour out our whole hearts unto Him. 

President Holland shares a quote from G.K. Chesterton which said “that thanks are the highest form of thought; and…gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder.” I will go into further depth on gratitude in my next blog post.

A private prayer encompasses many other forms of praying including the prayers we offer up for forgiveness or repentance. Or the continuous prayer which is always in our hearts and thoughts; our souls sincerest desires. Or the studious prayer where we seek God’s council. President Holland says more about these kind of prayers from his talk, “If we “ask not amiss” there are no limits to when, where, or about what we should pray. According to the revelations, we are to “pray always.” We are to pray, Amulek said, for “those who are around you,” with the belief that the “fervent prayer of a righteous [people] availeth much.” Our prayers ought to be vocal when we have the privacy to offer them. If that is not practical, they should be carried as silent utterances in our heart. We sing that prayers are “motion[s] of a hidden fire,” always to be offered, according to the Savior Himself, to God the Eternal Father in the name of His Only Begotten Son.”

As we pray in earnest and fervently we are showing great warmth, intensity of spirit, feeling, enthusiasm, admiration, and our serious state of mind. We take the time to plead to the Father, seek His guidance, cry out for the injustice, and even do as Christ did and ‘Fall on our face's in prayer’when our own strength is not enough.

Meditation is also another form of private prayer even when done in groups or when guided. Meditation isn’t the absence of thought but rather a controlled environment for thought. Thoughts are vital to the meditation practice. Your mind needn’t always be clear of evasive thoughts but rather sorted through. Thoughts are God's way of telling you what is important or what needs to be focused on, however, most times  the most important is hidden behind a bunch of junk thoughts or distractions. Your job during meditation, or any other form of prayer, is to sort through these thoughts like mail. Many you’ll observe and send along on its way but every now and then you’ll open one that will give you the distinct impression that this is a deep and concerning thought that needs attention right away.

Meditation isn’t just sitting there mindlessly, it’s a deeply rooted and uncomfortable work. It’s an access to the parts of your mind and memories that you often avoid or try to hide because it isn’t the time, you don’t feel you have adequate space to express, it’s embarrassing, or it’s hurtful. You may avoid these thoughts because you’re not sure what you’d do with them anyway. You’re not sure how to “fix it”. Allowing yourself to meditate is taking the mindful action to allow yourself that time, telling your spirit that you are safe to express, allowing you to feel it all, letting God work within you and within this space you will find a sense of comfort ,beyond the thoughts, and might even find your next step.

In contrast to our private prayers, our public prayers are opportunities to pray for one another in small groups or large congregations. It’s an opportunity to open or close meetings or to simply praise God and Jesus Christ with the baring of our testimonies. A public prayer is one we utter out in the open to join together as one under God. A few sub categories to public prayers that are found throughout many religions are the prayers that are written, repetitious, or sung in hymns or psalms.    

Other subcategories to the public prayers are the ones that are used to perform ceremonies, blessings, and to offer protection. These public prayers are in adherence to priesthood power to enhance well being. It’s these kind of prayers offered that show in our countenances like that mentioned by President Holland about Jesus in scriptures like Matthew 17:2, Mark 9:3, Luke 9:29, and 3 Nephi 19:25.   

And finally amidst the prayers in public we have the formal prayers and proper order of prayer. These are the prayers we are taught how to pray through Christ in Luke chapter eleven verses 1-4, through others, and in the temple. These are the most commonly thought of prayers that we offer. These are the prayers that cover all the other aforementioned prayers. These are the prayers that we offer when we want to know more, grow to become more like Christ, or to show our devotion and love to God and His other children as Susan H. Porter mentions in her talk from April 2024 entitled, Pray, He is there”. 

Answers to prayer can take a long time. Lifetimes even. We don’t always get to see the effects or answers of our prayers. Jeffery R. Holland in his talk, Motion's of a Hidden Fire, says “God Hears and answers every prayer we offer and responds to each of them according to the path He has outlined.” When we have prayed but feel like God hasn’t answered us, Susan H. Porter says, “Don’t give up! Heavenly Father will show you what you can do”. Because we can only control what we do and the choices we make, it is important for us to also have patience and gratitude for the outcomes of our prayers. The answers may not be at the time that we want them, the inspiration we receive may not make sense to us, or the answer might not be what we were wanting but the answer always comes and in the meantime he still gives us hope and inspiration for what we can do now as we wait such as the example that Sister Porter gives where she was inspired to “Be an example of the gospel of Jesus Christ”. Sister Porter says that in these situations, “Often the best question to ask Heavenly Father is not why but what”.







PART II

Our Reception 


We are essentially made up of three distinct things: our minds, our bodies, and our spirit. When all three align we can feel peace and clarity but oftentimes one gets overused or underused. We tend to go to our minds first as that is how we identify ourselves. We are who we think that we are and become how we think we could become. Our thoughts, emotions, interpretations, and intellect all go through our minds. We use our own past experiences to project our futures and seek understanding in research and study. It’s easy to get wrapped up in the mind and forget that it’s actually our spirit that comes first. 

The spirit is our gift from God that guides us morally. It dictates what is right and wrong and weighs out what challenges are worth the outcome. It’s usually our initial thought. The prompting that comes through first before the mind has had its time calculating it and backing it up with experience. Our spirit is our unexplainable creativity, where our ideas, hopes, dreams, talents and faith reside. It dictates better ways of living and connects us to others. It operates on intuition, or gut feelings. It points and denotes all things to God, the creator of all things and works with both mind and body to see that divine intervention trumps coincidence. Our spirit is a truth seeker, joy enthusiast, and an advocate for good boundaries and where we can expand or hold fast. The spirit is our soul’s direct connection to God. There is not one or the other. 

“Through his spirit,” Susan H. Porter says, “your heart can change, and you can receive strength.” Through this spirit we can find our spiritual gifts, or rather traces of our divine natures that reflect our Heavenly parents. Our spiritual gifts have the ability to draw us closer to God because they call on those parts of ourselves that are closer to God already. My soul knows what my spiritual gifts are but often my mind forgets. Pursuing a life keeping in line with those gifts opens channels of inspiration and spiritual confidence which can also help others to open their own channels. For example, a sister in my ward shared her own gifts when she produced a talk in sacrament meeting the 24th of July 2022, based on Matthew Wickman’s message from BYU speeches entitled, "Thriving Spiritually", which a lot of the second part of this blog post pulls inspiration from. I felt like this talk given through Rebecca’s own inspirations that she followed through with “opened a channel of inspiration” for me. I felt I had my direction again and saw that once I felt that click into place my spiritual confidence began to increase once again.

Our spiritual gifts may not come “naturally” to us, as odd as that may sound. I think it's normal for us to think that if we are gifted with something then we must already have natural tendencies to use that gift but as in Mosiah 3:19 it says "the natural man is an enemy to God." This simply means in this context that while we may be given many gifts from God we may not always know how or when the right to use them is. We may feel rusty or mistake riddled as we try and activate those dormant gifts but as we do we will continue to receive further light and knowledge in where God wants us to use those gifts and how to use them.

Another gift from God we are given is an external helper after we are baptized; the Holy Ghost, an addition to our own spiritual intuition. This is a direct messenger from God who confirms or defers. It is the counselor to our entire entity: the mind, body AND spirit. The Holy Ghost advocates for what is being neglected and guides us on where we can further harmonize not just within ourselves but also to God. The Holy Ghost is our companion, friend, mentor and teacher. 

“The gift of the Holy Ghost . . .

  1. Quickens all the intellectual faculties

  2. Increases, enlarges, expands and purifies all the natural passions and affections;

  3. Adapts natural passions and affections, by the gift of wisdom, to their lawful use.

  4. Inspires, develops, cultivates and matures all the fine-toned sympathies, joys, tastes, kindred feelings and affections of our nature.

  5. Inspires virtue, kindness, goodness, tenderness, gentleness and charity.

  6. Develops beauty of person, form and features.

  7. Tends to health, vigor, animation and social feeling.

  8. Confirms inspiration and intuition if aligned with God

  9. Marrow to the bone, joy to the heart, light to the eyes, music to the ears, and life to the whole being.

In order to be receptive after we have presented our offering of prayers to God we must be open and willing to listen, record, and act even if the confirmation to our prayers wasn’t exactly how we expected it to be.  

  1. Listen

  • When was the first time that you felt God speak to you? What was that experience like?

  • How do you find peace when life feels overwhelming? 

  • What role has God played in your life?

  • What verses of scripture help you #HearHim?

  • How does God communicate with you?

  • What advice would you give, particularly to young people trying to navigate the modern world, for how they can better #HearHim?

  • cultivating the companionship of the Holy Ghost even when we weren’t seeking answers to urgent questions?

  • Have you felt the Spirit even a little as you have sought the Lord in prayer?

  • Have you felt the Spirit convey to you that God loves you, or that He understands you, or that He has great hopes for you, or that He sorrows with you, or that He rejoices with you, or that He appreciates your gratitude to Him or your kind deed for someone else?

  1. Keep a journal of impressions:

  • When they occur

  • How they occur

  • How I responded

  • Does it feel peaceful or lead in the way of peace?

  • Is this aligning in the direction of the person I want to be?

  • extraordinary counterintuitive peace

  • How do I feel more connected to God? How doI see Him in this?

  1. Heed the Promptings

  • Doing the right things at the right moments

  • Accomplishing tasks with joy and peace instead of stress

  • Intentional living

  • Trust in God - have patience in His timing

  • Own your choices. Take accountability and repent of the ones that didn’t align with God. Celebrate and rejoice with God over the choices you made with faith. Show gratitude for the His guidance in the choices you were unsure how to make. Susan H. Porter shares a story of praying for her father from when she was in primary to accept the gospel. Of the experience she says, “Heavenly Father does not force anyone to make a choice.” Because of this answers to prayers come in ways that can help us know what choices we can make for ourselves and in time all things will be made right in the sight of the Lord.

XOXO

Megan